So It’s been about three months since I actually was active on this tumblr. I took a break from trying to change my body to look like a super model. Thats why things didn’t work for me. I know I told you guys to do it for yourself, and I was being a hypocrite because I wasn’t doing it for myself. I was doing it so boys would notice me and girls would be jealous of my body. Well over the three months, I realized that I actually want to do this for ME. I told myself I would start over once Cross Country ended, and well today is the day! We have our last race today, I’m ridiculously out of shape and have only gone to like 4 practices in the past three weeks, so I’m screwed. I run cross country because I don’t want to take PE, so I don’t take it seriously. But starting tomorrow I’m going to gym everyday (minus Fridays) and days where I’m out of town :) So bitches I’m back!
Just had cookie dough for breakfast…I have been eating terrible these past two weeks and I’m absolutely disgusted with myself and the way I look! I’m turning things around! I’m going to the city with my mother and I’m going to try and eat as healthy as possible! When I get home tonight I’m going to go the gym and run one hour on the treadmill and strength training for abs and legs and then sit in the sauna for thirty minutes! come home do my ACT/college app stuff and then probably go on a run tonight! I’m buckling down again and this time I’m not letting myself go! I owe you guys at least that! I feel like such a fake when I log into this account and feel like I’m lying to you because I myself can’t even stick to healthy eating and daily exercise! But that I me no more! I will do whatever it takes to get back into the groove! i will wake up early to make sure I go to the gym! I will pack snacks throughout the day whenever I am out! I promise you guys! I love you and don’t let a few weeks mess you up! Just get back on board and try harder :)
Sorry I haven’t been on as much as I used to! but prepare for some major reblogging!